And From Slumber i Woke up

Well it’s been quite a while after I am writing… in between was busy preparing for entrance. And since the day I got admission was really very busy. Didn’t had time for myself, forget about giving it to others. Weekends were very busy, had some spare time every Saturday morning but it use to fly past at the rate of knot… however today here I am.. exams are finished, 1st sem. Ofcourse. Six months just flew by and when I look back am pretty happy today. Just pondering why I decided so late on MBA, infact should have enrolled for MBA much before I thought and tried for CFA. Anyways I think that it is ..LIFE.. mix of some achievement, failures, Happiness, sadness, love, hatred, blunders…………..just those famous lines coming to my mind…….

Woods are lovely dark & deep,
But I have promises to keep AND
Miles to go before I sleep AND
Miles to go before I sleep.

Also bidding farewell to 2008. That year that has seen a lot.

Economically – Highest inflation in decades, Stock market slide.Crude and Gold price Hike, War, terror, Economic gloom, Corporate Giants becoming Bankrupt, Job layoffs.
Science – Chandrayan was the biggest Success.
In Sport – Individual Olympic Gold medal- Shooting, Medal in boxing, Jeeva milkha singh rise in Golf, Narain Kartikayen in Formula one, Doping in Olympics, End of Australian Era in cricket & rising of new Giants India & South Africa.
Politically - Shameful anti north Indian act of MNS, politicizing of the Mumbai terror, , Indo-Pak relations, Indo-US relations, Benazir Bhutto assassination, Palestinian attacks…

Well but now properties and infrastructure rate going down, interest rates dipping, petrol prices decreased, Inflation came down, market slowly but surely regaining strength –Future seems more brighter now…

We have seen the worst and nothing can be worse than this, with this belief let us embrace 2009 and make every possible efforts from our side to make this world more peaceful and happier place to live. AMEN.

TODAY

Well inflation all time high in India, World economic recession, Global warming… this is the scenario TODAY…. I don’t know where we are heading… We boast of technologies I Phones, Nuclear Missile, Robots.. but we lack basic facilities such as food ,water, air. Govt. topsy-turvy… it was about to fall anytime.. however thanks to some of our corrupt politicians who changed the sides on last moments thus savings crores of rupees which otherwise would have been spent for RE-ELECTION….. so corruption happened to be boon in disguise for India this time…however the scene of flinging currency note in our parliament was the obnoxious scene that must had ever happened in any country’s parliament. Power cut offs, water shortage are so common today. Even it has not spared Metros. Not even Mumbai, the Financial HUB.

Lets talk inparticular about MUMBAI. Crowded trains, Packed buses, to get a Auto is real challenge, so MUCH traffic. Population has crossed 15 Million mark. To be more specific its nearing 17 million. The “population” as we say correctly the root cause for all problems. Well I think getting too pessimistic. Need to change the direction. Still don’t we love this beautiful city…the city of dreams… the city of fame.. the City that never sleeps.. and overall our MOTHERLAND…the country of culture & rich heritage... the country of peace.. the country having so many different colours in terms of religion, festivals, people………Love you INDIA….. well the other half was more like me OPTIMISTIC…;-)

Faridabad Diary

Well 10th may 2008 I boarded the flight and was off to Delhi. I was to move to Faridabad via Delhi…….On official tour…on project named RSBY. Was hearing it lot from everybody in co.… so voluntarily gave my name for this project…as I wanted to know what RSBY is all about. The journey, the days which I spent there will remain forever with me whole my life…..

Well I knew it will be a tough project as it was May and knew that sun will be scorching hot.. Temperature in Faridabad going as high as 44 degree….I directly went to the place where our operators were stationed…. I was told to reach Badarpur border.. which I did through Airport cab…after reaching there I saw CYCLE AUTO… still in many parts of India cycle auto are popular mode of transport… I took that and was really pissed off as I had to get down 6 times as the road was in very bad state….i even pushed rickshaw thrice as it need to go on the upward slope….Finally I reached the destination.. it was Lakkarpur Village…where power cuts are at whim and fancies of the govt.,, water shortage is common…no conveyance…for one good place to eat you need to walk one KM…….. for drinking water we need to purchase 1re. Water pouch…Faridabad also is very dusty place…I use to eat around half kg dust (sand) (exaggerated) by default during local travel. Being Mumbaiaites we are used to see throng whereas it was solitary alleys in Faridabad, even in Faridabad city u will not find much throng around in streets….

Was not well already since I started from Mumbai… had got throat infection, which got aggravated there…in between one day I lost my voice completely…I had to write down and tell what I wanted to say. In entire trip I was unable to bath thrice, thrice didn’t even had time to brush my teeth’s…….washed my cloths on my own….. (Meanwhile another colleague joined me… Vivek, hardworking and nice chap). Among all these hardships the one thing to cheer for.. was the work/output (Though it was not that good initially).. We then moved to next block, Palwal. Things started there even better as compared to last block…..was really very happy when we achieved 978 enrol. in a day.. missed thousand by a small margin. Average strike was constantly above 70%.

By then it was time for me to return back as I had some personal agenda pending when I left Mumbai…

Well I understood the value of all the conveniences we have here in urban life…. Was also Missing Mumbai badly… nothing beats Mumbai… Yeh hai Mumbai meri jaan…signing off for now.....

Thought

Thought of sumbody never goes from my mind.

Hope I ma still the same and fine….

tried so hard to take that out of mind….

Then only I was amazed to find….

I cud do whatever I want…

But this thought wud remain their and go on…

Nothing cud I do to stop this . I tried n tried but in vain..

Then I realize that this could end up wen I am gone forever…

Forever in the the wolrd of soul………….

साँसे

Har saanse jo main le raha hoon
Kuch kehti hain mujse, kyun ab bhi jinda hoon main..
puchta hoon main khuda se……..
Jab dhoka hi milna tha mujhe to yeh pyar ki sogat kyun di….
Jab tanha hi chodna tha mujhe to kisi ke hone ki aas kyun di…
Maine tujse kabhi bhi na pyar manga tha…
Na hi kisi ka manga tha saath tujse..
Is tarah dard hi meri kismet main likhna tha ..
to kyun mera dil cheena mujshe..

Har saans jo main le raha hoon,
Kuch kethi hain mujhse….
Bohot jee liya khushi se ab dard hi likha hain teri kismet main….

सोचा न था

Hum ne socha na thaki ishq ka dursa naam dard hai…
Hum to ishq karte chale gaye…
Kasme nibhate chale gayee….
Vada hum karte gaye aur use nibhate chale gaye
Hume na pata tha ki who hume is doran bhulate chale gaye…….
Humne socha ki milegi humen mohabat ke badle mohbate yaroo
Pata na tha hume ki hum khudki kabra bante chale gaye………..

Loneliness

Look clear and look around

World’s seems full and sound

But there beneath it lies so ugliness

Which when defined to perfection means loneliness,

Which has become so often now Friendliness (with me)

I look up and above in heavens,

What I have done so demons that I was betrayed,

Why I have been betrayed……………..betrayed by so dear….

That will never think of this wonderful emotion (Luv) again in future………


Human can only die one time and I am now soul already…………………………………………॥

Someday

Vada

Vada kiya tha humne Vada nibhane ke liye….
Dil diya tha humne ..dil pane ke liye…
Woh mohbat shikla kar chale gaye..
Aur keh gaye ke humne mohbat kit hi tumhe azmane ke liye…

किसी ने हमसे पूछे कि वादों और यादो मैं क्या फर्क होता है ,
हम कहते हैं कि वादें इन्सान तोड़ता है और यादें इन्सान को तोड़ती हैं..

लम्हा लम्हा

Lamha lamha tujhe sochte hain…।

Lamha lamha dhudte hain…

Kahi ek pal ka deedar ho jaye॥

Bus phir haste hue hum hamesha ke liye so jaye…

Jane ke baad bhi tujhe bhul na payenge…

Ek yaad banker teri yaado main ayenge….

Hope

Let love flowby………..
World Let you be my..
I wish and wish over again…..
Will this wish & prayer will go in vain….
Still I have hope…
It will always lope..
Lope till my heart beats..
And even after.....

वो लम्हे

चंद लम्हात के वास्ते ही सही ,
मुस्कुराकर मिली थी मुझे जिंदगी,
तेरी आगोश मैं दिन थे मेरे कटे,
तेरी बहो मैं थी मेरी रातें कटी.........

आज भी जब वो पल मुझको याद आते है,
दिल से सरे गमो को मिटा जाते है,

बीते लम्हें.........................................................

About me...

Well there is one saying "The biggest problem in life is not when nobody understands you but its when you cannot understand yourself"..... so all the while in these many years trying my best to understand myself..... while doing this i fought with myself on so many issues.. take one;like whether i beleive in god or not...but fact is sometimes i do & sometimes i dont... so STILL THINKING ....

How i got inspired to Blog

Have heard about blog so many times before.... also heard news in between that it is creating starry attractions.. yep Aamir khan also started blogging... well i got inspired by one of my colleagues.. just saw him doing blogging..... and thought i should also do.... so that was beginning...